Drawing for His Glory

I WANT

I want from me and my generation onwards to never know poverty. 

I want from me and my generation onwards to never be in lack; only to be in lack where the need can only be satisfied by God, that will push them to pursue Him. 

Me and my generation onwards, we shall serve the Lord! 

Life wasn’t the same

Somewhat i was just thinking.. 

i get envious of people without PO.. how free they can to live their best life. how free they can to go church happily with their family without worrying, how happy they can be to live their best life, how much available they can be to do great things. i have great friends around me doing great things for Jesus at such a young age! man, if they turn to my age next time, how much more will they be doing?! 

Then while i was telling this to my sister (again).. i stopped. i heard something in my head and my heart. 

It is all for Jesus

Whatever we do, whatever position we may hold in church.. it’s all for Jesus. my relationship with Him comes FIRST. 

If God has permitted PO to enter my life, i trust that there is a reason in everything He do. the value of my life is not determined about how high i climb up there, how much or how big i can do things, but how close i am to God.

PO has brought me much closer to God. i believe it. without the pain, the tears, the anger, the quarrels, i will not seek for peace in the presence of God. 

without these pains, i will not go into the quiet room of prayer for His assurance.

without these obstacles, probably i would have not treasured every chance to serve God and i would have been a very weak man without any convictions. a lukewarm Christian. 

Father, won’t you teach me how to put you first above everything else? How i need to keep glorifying you in everything i do and not caring about myself being recognised? 

I am a 4year old Christian.

I have not backslided though highly tempted at times. One thing PO taught me was tenacity, never let go. 

I am serving God as an usher ic, as an administrator, as a teamer, as a designer. 

Proud to just be in His house.. what else can i ask for except for You God? 

Only You.. Only You..